27 September, 2011

A Stay At Home Mum (with a Crafty Blog)

Can you help me? 
I hope so, I need your advice.
You see, I feel a little lost.
Well, actually, is lost the word?
Maybe it's lost or perhaps shocked or dithering even?
You see, after nearly 20 years in the work force, I'm now a Stay At Home Mum (with a Crafty blog).
And well, it's really hard to adapt to this new life.
It's not that I don't love spending time with Bubba, cos I really do, I adore it, it's the best job in the world.
But, every time I look in the mirror I see working office girl Rie not Mumma Rie.

Does that make sense? Maybe not.  It's hard to explain.

I don't have to go back to work. I have no desire to go back to work. I don't miss work.  Most new mums that I know have gone back to work - does that mean I should too? Is bubba missing out because he's not in daycare like the other kids?
And, I just don't feel the whole process of motherhood as a career has adopted me!

Well, it's not like I had a job interview for this motherhood job, nor did I have any training, nor are there any manuals and no, there is no 3 month trial period. 
This motherhood job is for life. 
Which is cool, it's great & wonderful & I look forward to everyday with bubba as I watch him grow & learn. 
But... how do I step away from working office Rie?
I've tried to explain it to a few people but they don't seem to understand. They seem to think that I'm over-reacting or that I should just go back to work a few days a week or that I have Post Natal Depression.
I'm not, I don't want too & I don't have PND.
So I decided, yes, I made a decision. If my main problem was that I don't look like a mum (well to me anyway).... then I should change the way I look.  And the easiest way to do this is to chop off my hair!  My hair is mid-way down my back & has been for years & years & years... so I'll chop it off short.  
Eeek..... everybody said - that's over-reacting. Nope, I told them, if it doesn't work the hair will grow back & I'll try something else.  So I did, I had it all chopped off. AND....it's been a few days now & I feel great! I think it worked!!!  And I love waking up with crazy bed hair, it's hilarious!!!
So here they are... long hair office girl Rie & short hair Stay at Home Mumma (with a Crafty blog).

Whatchya think?
Did I over-react? 
Are you a Stay at Home Mum?  How did you adjust to motherhood as a full time career?
.... and... do I sound nuts?